Today, I faced a huge fear, conquered it, and feel like a superhero! What did I do? I gave myself a B12 shot (the B12 might also be part of the reason I feel so good!)
If you have been reading this blog at all, you probably already know that I have been through a lot of medical stuff, some of which was extremely painful. If this is your first time here, you can visit A Brief Timeline of Crazy to catch up. I get IV iron infusions and bloodwork every week and have had 5 major surgeries and several minor ones in the past few years, so rationally I shouldn’t have a problem with giving myself one little shot. But, as my husband can attest, I am not confined by the bounds of rationality.
When other people give me shots or take my blood or cut me open, I don’t have to look! My fear is of the sight of a needle going into skin, not the feel of it. But today I needed to get my B12 shot (I have severe anemia and a combo of weekly B12 and IV iron is the only thing that keeps me upright) and no one was around to give it to me. I really didn’t want yet another doctor visit for something so small and I have all the supplies at home. So I put on my big girl yoga pants (well actually pulled them down, the shot went in my upper thigh) and gave myself the shot. And I didn’t even take a Xanax before doing it. And guess what? I was ok! I didn’t faint, or cry, or stab an artery or anything. I gave myself the shot and then went about my day.
But I had a little extra pep in my step. I faced that fear and I totally owned it! So I started thinking… being brave and facing something that really frightened me gave me a burst of energy and confidence… maybe it could do the same thing for other people… Halloween is supposed to be scary… Halloween is in October…wouldn’t it be cool if I could get people to challenge themselves and do something that scares them in October, to be brave…I’ve been hearing that word everywhere lately…I could call it Brave October or Bravetober…Bravetober sounds ridiculous, Brave October is probably better…I can be all #BraveOctober everywhere…Wow, those people already have a huge blowup spider in their yard…Oh crap, tomorrow is the first day of October, how did that happen?…I should probably get started with this thing if I’m gonna do it…It’s awesome that my kids don’t like chocolate, I get to eat all their candy… I could really use a Milky Way right now…
That went on for quite awhile until got myself some candy and decided that I was going to take those random thoughts and use them to create #BraveOctober.
Here are the rules of the Brave October challenge. This month, do something that scares you and then let the world know about it by posting about it on Facebook, YouTube, or Twitter- you can simply write about it or include pictures/video if you want! Then challenge your friends to do the same and use the # BraveOctober. If you want to use this as a platform to raise money for your favorite charity, awesome! But the real point of Brave October is to get people to step out of their comfort zone and do something they have been holding back on because of fear.
Maybe it’s something like riding a roller coaster or petting a snake at the Zoo. Maybe it’s submitting a piece of poetry to a publisher or signing up for that open mike night you have always wanted to do. Maybe it’s sharing a personal story that you have kept to yourself and finally getting to talk about it so that weight doesn’t feel quite so heavy. Maybe it is standing up for somebody when your first instinct is to walk away. And sometimes, maybe being brave is just getting out of bed in the morning and facing the day.
Whatever it means to you, let’s start being brave. There is a lot to be afraid of in this world- I live in Dallas, we had our the nation’s first confirmed case of Ebola reported today at the hospital I go to 1-2 times a week! While I can’t do anything about that, I can stop being afraid of doing some things that would be positive in my life. Like deciding that I can take an exercise class even though without a doubt I would be the most out of shape person there. Or finally having the courage to leave the house with my kids in their big girl underwear and trust that even if it is a disaster I will live through it.
Let’s do this people. Help me make #BraveOctober a thing!